Again and Again.

What am i living for?

Wednesday, 12 December 2007

once again, hello there!! haha.. i am now listening to three songs that i need to put inside my head my tomorrow.. or i mean today.. haha.. "tourniquet - evanescence, cassie - flyleaf, salvation - cranberries".. haha.. well i think that the music did get into my head.. i just need to remember the lyrics.. haha.. lol.. hopefully during these three days of jamming i am able to prepare myself to sing these three songs.. hahah..

i am performing on the 15th of december!! that is one day before fara's birthday.. well i am just a replacement but i will try to put my best effort.. it won't be long before my real band "INCOGNITO" to come up stage and play the songs that we choose.. gosh.. it's very hard to find tul these days.. anyone knows where had he gone to?? i am damn puzzled.. it is like i am totally lost contacts with all of my band members and this is not a good sign.. i must make the effort to pull myself and the rest of the members together to be like we used to.. hopefully this band of mind will not be futile.. sigh.. ahha..

i did have a very weird dream yesterday.. or rather just now in the morning.. hahah.. i was performing on stage with some of my friends.. if i am not wrong, we were using katana (japanese sword) as the performance.. i was like damn puzzled of what i was doing.. from the stage suddenly the background changes to some japanese-modern kind of house.. ahha.. then it like im in the toilet with this guy i had seen before.. ahha.. it was weird.. what is more weird is that the only thing that i was wearing in that moment of time in the dream, only a towel covering my whole body.. then suddenly that guy was talking about my husband being dead.. haha.. i was like what the?? haha.. i feel that the guy was trying to comfort me.. it was like damn more weird when he suddenly grabbed and kissed me.. my abyss!! someone!! please kill me!! no way.. then the background changes again.. this time.. it was the deeper part of the house.. haha.. and guess what?? the people living in that house keep crocodiles as pet.. so i was like got chase by these idiotic croc.. and in that dream that it was lucky that the croc did not manage to get me.. haha.. lolol.. it was a really weird and funny incident.. hahaah...

well, who cares.. as long as i love my live, i would not be so desperate to end it so fast.. i still want to enjoy my live and falling in love with the correct person.. ahha.. lolol.. kies.. i am sleeping now.. nites...

Wednesday, 12 December 2007

nitezzz

I'm searching for the sky that I've lost.

Name: Siti Hawa (Ais)
Age: 18 years old
Date of birth: December 6
Status: Single

Read this blog or JUST FUCKING LEAVE!

I love being myself.
I am who I am.
Accept me or FUCK OFF SERIOUSLY.
I am either singing, reading or screaming all the time.
I love almost all colours that exists except for PINK.
If you see me in PINK, it means that my mom forces me too. -__-"
I treasure the bonds that I have between my friends.

I hate people that only use me as a stepping stone.

I am sorry BITCH(including those RETARDED BOYS out there) but I am not a stone!
I may seem like a nice girl, someone that you can push around.
Sadly to say that, I ain't no girl that you can push around like a rag doll.
Without you knowing, I might have just PUNCH YOUR PRETTY FUGLY FACE!
So just fuck off if you want to mess around with me.

WHAT I WANT?
laptop
dslr camera
nail polish
shirts
pants

I want to shout it out loud.

I ask myself if I really do love you.