it has been a while since i update my blog.. okay.. very long time.. sigh.. many things had happened and i am now damn tired because of all the problems that i was carrying during these few weeks.. sigh..

my dad is a one damn stubborn guy.. i guess that the stubborn genes run in the family.. why do i say that? it is simple.. i realised that i am stubborn as well.. sigh.. but blame anyone.. ahha..

no jamming for two weeks.. should we jam outside?? sigh.. kelly emailed karl and mentioned that the studio will be occupied next friday.. but i am not sure of what is going on in the studio.. haha.. well.. i guess its normal.. lucky karl told me early.. if not, i would not want to think of the reactions of my band mates.. sigh

haha.. we camwhore again and again!! haha.. camwhoring is fun.. by camwhoring, it shows another side of you that you would not even think off.. haha.. hey congrats azee.. your banner is now beings used!! wee!! i love the uniqueness of the banner.. wootsa!! hahah.. i want fara editted picture.. sigh.. tomorrow i will post some picture that i took during the class outing!! hahah.. yup.. we did have an outing somewhere last 3 weeks or something like that..

sigh.. i am missing him right now.. i miss seeing his smile.. i miss talking to him.. sigh.. someone please help me.. even if he did read my blog, i do not think that he would know that i really love him a lot.. i don't mind if someone reject me.. at least i know his feelings towards me is just friends and not more than that.. sometimes, we are unable to differentiate between feelings among friends and feelings among the person that we are currently in love with..

i know it suck.. but at least did chat with him.. but i still wanna see the face that has a very big hearty smile.. well i think that made my day.. sigh.. why must i fall hard for this guy.. haha..

during breakfast today, we asked each other to be truthful.. when we like a person, we would surely look at their outer beauty first then inner beauty.. that was the question that was being posted to us.. my answer is not really.. this is because i can tell you that my ex-boy do not have the looks but the personality is there.. that time i think that my eyes were really damn blind because i really thought that their personalities are good but turned out they are just some horny bastards.. haha.. oh well.. who cares..

when this question is posted to a guy, i think i would know the answer.. "err.. i think i go for both".. that will be the answer.. but have you ever think why you like or love that person? isn't because he or she is a beauty in your eyes.. there is a saying of "beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder".. so i think that it is true after all.. for me, i think it is because of his smile that makes me attracted to him.. funny right.. then i went deeper to look for his true self.. but from what i had known is that guys will only reveal their true self when they are together with someone.. that is from my own experience.. but who cares about now.. that is a different story once i got to know his real self.. i think that it would be fair to look out for his true self.. i like this kind of bitter sweet unrequited love.. but sometimes, i really feel lonely when i saw a couple walking beside me and laughing so happily..

i guess that is a normal thing to feel.. sigh.. i better end here because i am downloading something and it is a "bit" lagging.. sigh.. oh my.. kaikan phrase songs are super awesome.. i am not sure if you have heard of it before but it is quite refreshing to listen to foreign songs..

okay.. i got to end now.. well i see you tomorrow..