alright.. i am very frustrated with my parents.. why can't i have some privacy?? i want some privacy.. know what they did?? they checked my bag.. YES!! CHECK MY BAG!! isn't checking of bags are like so primary school kids?? why must they do that?? i am very annoyed that they really treated me like some primary school kid.. i am seventeen!! hello!! what the?!

and its like i want to go home late.. i know i am a young lady and it is not good for a young lady to go home late.. the reason of me reaching home by 7 is that i come out from school at 6.. don't they understand that the trip from woodlands to bukit batok take about 17 minutes.. and then the waiting time can be extended up to 8 minutes.. walking from school to the woodlands station is like about 10 to 15 minutes.. i still need to walk home which takes about 15 minutes.. if the time are added together, aren't they are like near to one hour?? abyss!! they should have learn to count the time taken to travel..

why i come out school at 6?? internet at home is farking retarded!! i hate it.. the connection is like so slow.. sometimes, i can't even send my homework because of the stupid connection.. that is why i prefer doing it in school.. and my dad doesn't understand.. he thought i might be hanging with the wrong company and doing things that i shouldn't do.. sometimes, i would wonder what he is thinking.. but most of the time, i know that he is thinking that i would be having SEX!! please.. i know when i want to have sex.. and that is when i am married to someone, then i would have sex.. gosh.. they are really thought that i am going to do that..

that is the reason i want my narrow-minded parents to meet with all of my friends so that they would not be judging them based on the stupid wrong company.. damn!!

and what?? my irritating dad of mine keep repeating the stupid topic again and again!! i am so over that topic and he still brings it up whenever he is angry.. it's tiring me and how i which that there is no such rule as to punish a murderer.. i am sure you know why.. I WANT TO KILL HIM!! he never wants to listen to my side of view.. he always want me to go his way.. but i am not him.. i hate him for making me do the things that he wants me to.. i just want to have my freedom.. give me my freedom!!! i am really screaming from my heart even though i am putting a smile because i do not want people to pity me.. because i want to be strong.. i want to prove to him that i am more than what he thinks.. i want to have my name in someone who is well-known for something that i have produced.. i want him to be proud of who i am.. he could not accept the fact that i am born this way.. i do not ask anyone to make me who i am right now.. it is the way i am.. why can't he understand me??

many people misunderstood me and think that i want pity.. all of them are like that!! i hate this world which is full of pests!! stupid pests so narrow-minded!! fark all of you!! stop misjudging me!! know me well before you make stupid comments.. that is why there is such thing as war and massacre..

okay.. and guess what?? my lead guitarist is farking sick!! damn!! just when we want to start on the new song!! it is like we really need to buck up.. can't be leaving behind.. can't he just at least come?? i know this might sound like i am selfish.. but i really think that we need to work on our songs.. we can't be laid back all the time.. i want us to go far also.. sigh.. i thought of even trying to book some studio so that we can jam properly.. i do not want all my effort being waste.. it is very hurting.. i am near my limit again.. i need to let this go!! DAMN!!! it is very irritating!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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