i think that i was really beat damn tired yesterday.. the worst had to come after my judo training.. damn why can't it be some other day?! this kind of thing happens to girls every month.. yeah.. my period.. gosh.. i think that i was lucky that there was no stains on my white judo pants!! WHITE!! it was really close.. damn.. due to this problem, my body become strangely tired.. i was damn lethargic until i find myself struggling when walking.. it was so horrible for me..

i chatted with him somewhere in the day.. ahah.. very fun.. he somehow stood up for me.. that makes me like him even more.. is it alright if i just confess to him on my birthday? or should i just leave him alone? that i am very scared.. usually, guys would be chasing after girls.. and not the other way round..but nowadays, i always see that the girls are making the first move because some guys are just too dumb to notice that this certain girl has a feeling for him.. that what makes the girl look pity.. yeah.. guys who failed to notice girls that feelings for them should just be thrown in the Indian Ocean and let the sharks feed on them.. muahahaha.. it is going to be exciting seeing it happen.. hehehe.. no offence to readers who are guys.. hahaha.. i am so ebil.. hehe.. well.. that is me..

if i confess, i might be rejected because i felt that he has someone he still cannot forget.. but i might also be accepted.. well, it is either reject or the vice versa.. if i get rejected, i hope that he would be able to be with the one he loves and we could still be friends.. 2 of my friends know that i have a crush on him.. i just don't want a lot of people know or i am afraid that history might be repeated again.. i really don't want that to happen.. so i think that i should just chill and follow the flow.. i think.. if it is possible i want to celebrate my birthday this year with him.. i really hope that would happen if i invite him.. sigh.. another 1 month plus to go.. before i turn seventeen..

this is to my friends in class. i am sorry that i did not attend today's lesson when you need me.. i was kinda sick due to my lethargicness and my aching.. i am truly sorry.. i hope i did not cause any troubles to all of you.. i will make it up tomorrow, alright?

well i think that i will stop here and ouch.. my finger hurts.. haha.. help my mother to peel prawn's skins.. haha.. that is where my fingers got cut.. ahha.. ouh well.. got to go now.. ouh.. i did not upload the pictures during hari raya is it? i think i am doing it the next time.. bye!!