hey hey.. first of all i would like to say.. I LOST MY PRECIOUS HOUSE KEYS WITH MY BABY ON IT.. haha.. i am sad but also quite funny if you think that a baby is really on it.. it is just my favourite key chain which i had bought for myself on my birthday 4 years back.. it had been with me throughout my whole secondary school life.. no one even remember my birthday.. though i had even the same birthday as my ex-classmate.. but nobody remembers mine.. ahah.. guess i was really a school reject.. sigh.. don't want to talk much about the past.. it brings nothing but some painful memories that still have the impact on me..

i did not to talk much with him today.. i was hoping that he would be coming online tonight.. but he did not go online tonight.. it was quite sad ar.. i was hoping to release all my stress to him ar.. but he is not online.. sigh.. man.. i am quite bored now.. i chatting with rudolf but i don't know what happened to him suddenly.. maybe he is watching the youtube which he had mentioned in his nick.. ahha.. i love flooding in his blog.. wwwweeee!!! so fun.. ahaha.. don't be mad.. haha.. i now have the habit to flood people's cbox.. haha.. it is so fun..

ouh.. i think angus know who i like.. i better make him shut up or i scared that he might accidentaly blurted out to the guy that i like him.. then i am very scared that the whole thing might repeat again.. seriously, i don't want to be left all alone and go through the past again.. i was too hurting for me getting ignore by the person you love a lot.. yes folks.. i have fallen for him so hard that in the end i was the one to receive the most painful experiences while that guy still have a happy smile on his face.. it was hurting but i thought that it was time to let him go as soon as i am in polytechnic.. thus, now my heart is not with him but with someone else and i really afraid of going through the same process again..

i guess today's lesson was not that bad.. i am so NOT looking forward to tomorrow's lesson.. that dead damn boring facilitator.. she should at least explain using with her own words rather than just reading off the slides.. seriously, i really find that her lessons are all boring.. i think that it is very hard to concentrate when she is giving such a monotone voice.. sigh.. i really hope that she would change her teaching style.. i am afraid that i might not score well for my understanding test (UT).. i feel like i am lazy to go to school tomorrow.. sigh..

i got to go now.. i'll keep you update.. sigh..