Again and Again.

What am i living for?

Thursday, 24 January 2008

ahha.. let's see.. 2 days ago, we went to causeway point to eat!! hahah... enjoy ourselves to the fullest.. haha.. lolol.. our whole gang all bought the malt candy.. i bought the plum flavour..

haha.. alright.. i should just throw myself into the sea.. i totally forgot that my band is jamming yesterday!! argh!! shit.. i am so dead.. karl is going to kill me!!! oh man.. why did i forget about it?? argh!! i am so dead.. karl!!! i am so sorry.. i hope that i did not cause any trouble for yesterday.. i am really so sorry.. damn!!

i still having my doubts.. i told rid and adam about him.. abyss.. i am so confused right now.. sigh.. i should wait for a longer time before stepping up to say..

"I have something to say.. I kind of like you from the first day we met.. I hope that you can consider my feelings.. I hope that we could still be friends if you want to stay the way we are.. Erm.. So I think I got to go now.. Thank you for listening to me.."

i can't imagine is this is the passage that i am going to say to him.. abyss.. i am usually this kind of mushy mushy but i guess that i need to be brave in order to say my feelings for him.. i will wait in about next april before i confess to him.. because i think that i might not be able to see him the following year..

ahha.. meet up with zara yesterday because we got some meeting that we don't even payn attention.. haha.. lolol.. well i know about zara's secret and she knows about mine.. haha.. i guess that she loves to disturb this small kid here.. hahaha.. lolol.. *blush* ahah.. hmm.. let's see..

i forget to mention that i only meet up with jy, josh, iswan, angus and his friend.. haha.. lolol.. i guess that jy, iswan and josh are trying hard to guess who i like.. haha.. lolol.. unfortunately, you guys did guess the person correctly.. but i wonder who the person is.. muahahah.. well.. let's just see the result of my confession on april kies.. see whether he accept or reject.. haha.. lolol.. sigh..

alright.. today is SUPER SUPER damn farking boring science lesson.. i was like "WHAT?!" when i saw the problem statementwhich is 2 pages long.. mother farker!! so damn farking long!! i don't even bother to read the problem statement.. haha.. lolol.. then i think that grace did all the work today in compiling all the information.. i am so sorry.. because i did not bother to do anything much.. haha.. i hope that i still did help you somewhere here and there.. haha.. lolol.. haosu going back china this weekend.. so he is not coming back next week which will be the last week of year 1 semester 2..

this april i am going to be a senior and in year 2.. i cannot imagine what it is like to be in year 2.. i am quite nervous about it.. sigh.. i hope that the facis would be able to guide me along.. since i am the blur one.. haha.. i would be the first to be lost amidst the crowd and also the lesson.. haha.. tall people would not be able to see me because i am short.. ahha.. lolol..

kies.. i am nervous about confessing, going to year 2 and this sunday's job.. wish me all the best.. ahah.. lolol.. hey guy.. if you are reading this, sorry but i can't help but i have feelings for you.. i hope that it would not be a burden..

Labels: i decided to confess to you in april..

Thursday, 24 January 2008

i want to confess to you..

Labels: i decided to confess to you in april..

I'm searching for the sky that I've lost.

Name: Siti Hawa (Ais)
Age: 18 years old
Date of birth: December 6
Status: Single

Read this blog or JUST FUCKING LEAVE!

I love being myself.
I am who I am.
Accept me or FUCK OFF SERIOUSLY.
I am either singing, reading or screaming all the time.
I love almost all colours that exists except for PINK.
If you see me in PINK, it means that my mom forces me too. -__-"
I treasure the bonds that I have between my friends.

I hate people that only use me as a stepping stone.

I am sorry BITCH(including those RETARDED BOYS out there) but I am not a stone!
I may seem like a nice girl, someone that you can push around.
Sadly to say that, I ain't no girl that you can push around like a rag doll.
Without you knowing, I might have just PUNCH YOUR PRETTY FUGLY FACE!
So just fuck off if you want to mess around with me.

WHAT I WANT?
laptop
dslr camera
nail polish
shirts
pants

I want to shout it out loud.

I ask myself if I really do love you.